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Of Picking Confidence

I had shed tears last night, the sounds meandered with rain hitting the tree leaves
I wondered what the birds in the nest are doing, are they safe,
a two second gap of care and random thoughts amidst this

Nothing really changed today morning
with irritation and ache for a change, I woke up
I really don’t want to wake up this way, but I did
dealing with it the easy way
get over it.
Put your two pounds cheap ego in the garbage bag
that has to go to the unethical landfills,
now wake up, smile
Here- that is you giving yourself another chance to survive
this game
Brush, bathe, eat- it’s hard to get into goodness

I walked a little, staring up at the birds and their safe chirps
a little more to do the chores, to show on the outside,
with a beaming smile, to show I am more than fine
then walk, to the tiny place where the solace is found
or that is what you think when there is no one to question you
not even yourself because you are there, to please yourself
to hunt for the gazillion thoughts and put it in line, like a school of army,
the bees store nectar in the tiny cubicles like this place
There is positivity in inches you walk and breathe
it is the vibe that hundreds brought to this place
and that is why I like coming here
to add my part

And when you come to the right place you kind of realise, you came in to store the positivity
in one of the cubicles and not here to pick some
I am walking back along the flower vendors, I see little things now, happy petals
and by the time I have reached home, I know,
I have picked the confidence I need to live the day, few moments,
from the birds that survived the rain,
from the stranger faces I saw while doing chores,
from beyond the walls in the solace place
from the flower vendors’ joyous flowers,

All you need is a walk, that day.

Self Destruction: Lesser Confidence, Body Shaming

One of the best lines I have heard in these few days (from one of my friends)- “It has been four years for now that a thing has hampered my confidence in any slightest way.” This one sentence triggered me to think and rethink about the way I’m living, the purpose and the little things that destruct me.

It is such a rare thing for anyone to tell, in a world where people take criticisms to the heart, who live for the sake of satisfying others, who do things just to get good credits and who live trying hard to impress others. In such situations, it becomes so easy to pierce a person and kill their confidence.

Few busy days, few free ones. In both the cases, you just need few seconds to doubt yourself, your deeds, your worth; to kill something which was built working hard for years. That’s the worst you can ever do to yourself-  turning self destructive.

Body shaming is one of the things that I’ve come across. Unless and until you’re confident about each of your atom, you cannot expect others to respect you. If you are confident about yourself then it would not even matter if someone criticizes. It took me a lot of time to accept that it is okay to be skinny as I am and there’s nothing wrong in that.

Dears,

Those confused thoughts, misty questions, unpoised face. That’s not you. That’s just a mask. There’s more. Underneath the skin, beyond everyone’s bounds, into the veins, among the misfits, you’re more, more than anyone can measure. You’re the one who is fit for it. A beautiful, thrilling soul that many crave for. If you mask it, doubt it, isn’t it unfair? You’re the one. You are it.
Trust. Believe.
Faith?
Yes, faith!

Loads of love,
The Mirthful Moon

And then comes ‘over confidence’. There’s just a thin line between both and we should make sure that we don’t bloat with pride. 🙂

 

Have a confident day, beautiful soul!